Last summer I saw the world in technicolor
I swung to exhilarating heights
Blinded by that bright orb overhead
Choking on my own laughter
Tripping on words coming out too fast
I recounted tales about you to everyone.
This year, I snapped the rose colored glasses in two
My mole-like eyes couldn’t bear the light
Withdrawals amounting to endless tears
Color drained to muted dull pigments
I lost excitement about everyone and everything
I wept for the highs and what was
I dreamt last night of a weird version of technicolor
I was naked but no one cared, not even me
Wandering vacant parking lots in full song
Being found and held tight, aching joy
We paraded a shopping mall in Poland
I hid from you between racks only in fun
I resisted leaving behind the dream
Rolling over in bed, sinking face into pillow
I reminded my face to be animated
Turned up the music all the way to feel
But I didn’t give myself permission to drop
Down down into the pits of sorrow
Today when I awoke there was color
A tangible rainbow plus some gray
I threw my head back in laughter
Celebrating life and friendship
Learning to appreciate me better
Still I cry over you, sometimes.